i was recently dumped by my current boyfriend and till today i still dunno why he left me just like that without any explanations.

maybe he's bored with me..
but the thing is its not him i think bout these daes when he recently left me.

i always think about a guy who really changed me into another person and i only realised it when my current bf left me.

6 mths ago..i was in a relationship with a guy whom i was really attracted to,but not from the first sight. i fell for him even before we met and when we did,he's not gd looking but i didnt cared at all cos i already fall for him when we still gettin to know each other on the phone. he's the first guy i get to know without considering his looks and all cos i am choosy when it comes to guys.

The thing is he really convinced me and within a mth knowin each other,i was head over heels with him..really..finally on the 27 of march he asked me to be his gf & i accpted it only on the 29th..and he was very happy.

Our relationship was happy and sweet except for he did some stuff that i didnt quite like such as drinking and stuff,and we often quarrel bcos im the one who started it.You see.. in the relationship,i used to be someone who really get mad over small things,sometimes i get angry witout any reason,i scolded him for anything he does,i kinda control his life..

and he was very nice to have the patience with my behaviours..

the worse thing i did was that i made a scene with him in front of his friends without even giving him any face,i called him "jantan sial" and all in front of his friends..i know that really made him upset but the thing is,a few days later when he and my closest gf secretly met,he told my closest gf that on that point of tym he dont know what has got into him bcos he's nvr been that mad with me.

When i know that,i was touched cos its normal for guys to be really mad with a girl who make him lose face in front of his friends and he didnt intended to be that mad with me.

On his bdae,his mum got mad cos of me..a few days later he refuse to pick my call and when he finally pick up,he said he's with his friends and when i called back a few mins later..his hp engaged and he told my sis he was talking with his guy friend but i know its not,its a gerl cos im not that stupid to believe that a guy wud want to chat with him on the phone 1AM in the morn..and i got REALLY MAD..i scolded him harshly,complained to my sis..and he put down the phone just like that.

The nxt day,i went to JE to look for him cos i wanted to giv him his bdae card that i forgot to giv,he wasnt there.And it turn out that day,he went out the girl,i got to know that frm his classmates cos most of em know that we're together & they were shocked to saw him with another girl at IMM.

Wad was i suppose to say? it jus shows that i duno hw to tk cr of my guy..The thing is,yes i really love him but i was being very protective cos im scared that he wil leave me one day and bcos of this,he really did leave me for another girl cos he said he didnt have the patience anymore..

i actually already went over his limits.

Yes i got upset,we quarelled over the phone,he said that girl is not like me..is better than me in terms of behaviour..I was blaming him at first cos i know he's a flirt but,

when i think back..its true that im the cause of the break-up..i was being too protective and childish at the same time.

Aftr that we still in contact & whenever we did,it felt as though we're still together bt we're only friends.That pt of tym i thought i've move bt i realised i wasnt..

when the last the tym i met him(on my open hse) & we hugged,he didnt noe that i cried aftr he left & i wasnt able to sleep that nite.And that day when i think of it,he's 1st guy i brought home + my mum & sis likes him(my mum til today stil asked bout him OK?);unbelievable..we even went home once with my sis & her bf when we're still together..

bt soon aftr,he ignored me cos i guess he wanted me to move on cos he's moving on..HAISX..SOO..

when i met my current bf,i duno why i was treating him diff from the way i treat my ex.I was being damn nice.i listen to everything he says,do everything he told me to,i nvr even scolded him before..even when he did any mistakes,im the one ended up saying sorry.He controlled my life,i cnot contact with any guys.He scolded me in everything i did,he always marah2..always bad mood i dun even noe why & often make me "sakit hati".Even my closest gf said i was very stupid to give my current bf too much face but to think of it,i dun wanna history repeat itself.

BUT,my current bf still left me..and i duno why till today.but..to think of it,i dun reli love him..i treated him as a REBOUND and i noe GOD wanted me to feel how my ex felt,how hard it is to be patient,thats why he fated me to meet my current bf cos my current bf behaviour was just like who i used to be when i was with my ex,(PROTECTIVE & UNREASONABLE)..

what goes around comes around..

and im really thankful to my ex bf that he had taught me a valuable lesson and changed me into someone else & im proud that i changed to a better person but till today i still think of my ex & still wondering whether he still thinks of me..even tho it has been about 4 mths dt we last contacted each other..i cant help to think that..

if i was what i am today,my relationship with my ex will last quite long cos i already noe hw to give in & be patient..even tho i noe he's a flirt & contact a lot of gerls,if im still his gf,i wud giv him the freedom but as long as he knows his limits nt like last tym,i will scold him and make him upset..i want to contact him but i noe he wudnt want me to cos he had moved on.

i hope that he read this & know that im really sorry that i hurt him alot of times..& thanks for changing me into sumone new..

IMYL!!!