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*IKA* LOLLYJENNY im 17 dis yr..
pure malay..
single && available..

i love anything dat is SWEET nd CUTE..
chocolates,teddybears nd lollypops makes me happy!!
i hate annoying pple..bein accused and mocked..

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todae..i met my SAYANG at jurong east!!! it was fun..we took wacky pics from his hp cam..nd i only manage to take 2 pics cos i was lazy to take pictures..HAHAHAH..we sat arnd..joke around..we chat..but we didnt do anything NASTY wokehh!! i swear.. helmi is very nice..he may get in fights and stuffs but he's not HORNY like iskandar..(my ex)..i make my SEMEMEK face nd he likes it cos he laugh!! HAHA..he's very sweet too..whenever we're together..he like to on the song..unintended by muse..the song is damn sweet..haisx..wen we're are enjoyin ourselves..time flies very fast nd i HATE IT!!!

**mohd helmi zais**

<< I LOVE HIS SMILE..>>


<< I LOVE HIS SILLY JOKES ND FACES..>>


i love todae..it was fun..
imagine....
bein together with ur loved one..
with this song..

UNINTENDED-MUSE


you could be my unintended choice

to live my life extended

you could be the one i'll always love

you could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

you could be the one i'll always love



i'll be there as soon as i can

but i'm busy

mending broken

pieces of the life i had before



first there was the one who challenged

all my dreams and all my balance

she could never be as good as you



you could be my unintended choice

to live my life extended

you should be the one i'll always love



i'll be there as soon as i can

but i'm busy mending broken

pieces of the life i had before

=)) its weird being seperated for 2 yrs..but end up together again cos he used to be my ex wen i was in sec 2..

wokehh..yesterdae i managed to talk wit helmi(my bf) on the phone..GOSH..he woke up at 6.30 pm?? i wonder WHY guys can sleep like babi..serious..i mean..the maximum hours i can sleep is bout 6 hours..nd dat too much sleep will keep me awake all night..hmmphh!! kae2 BACK TO THE STORY..i called him..he sounded BORED as usual..we asked each other usual qns like..have u EATEN? have u taken a SHOWER? nd stuffs like dat..i was quite irritated wit his way of talking..he talk with a so called DRAGGING voice..nd seriously i RELI dont like pple talking in a dragging way cos its very RUDE..dun u tink so?? so wen i start feelin irritated..i start blabbering about..why is he talking dat way?? did i do somethin wrong?? den he said he had NO MOOD..nd i bcame more angry cos whenever im having a BAD MOOD; he always tell not to follow my mood nd since den i did not show my "NO MOOD" way of talking with him..i listen to him wokehh??? nd why cant he do the same thing?? doesnt makes sense cos he's the one who told me not to follow my mood dt much..dis was exactly the thing i told him..guys with EGO..doesnt reli wanna show dat he's wrong but luckily my guy was kind enuf to say dt he duno why he got NO MOOD nd he duno why he's acting dis way..and he said SORRY..yupp he apologised..i try to understnd him..nd i say dt if he reli need the time to COOL OFF..i will giv him the time..nd i said dat i think we shud not be in contact dis few daes jus to let us CHILL OFF a lil bit nd think bout our relationship.. i thought he wud agree but he ended up askin..WHY? den wen we gona be in contact again? i told him SOON nd not to worry..our situation bcame reli tense wen i start to ask him..STUPID ME..wen i start to ask him..

"do u think we shud continue on our relationship?"

ya u can say dat im stupid cos usually guys dont like the topic about breaking up..so he asked me..

"why?..."

nd i replied..

"i feel dat the way u talk to me is already different..dt makes me feel dat u dont love me animore like you do but its unfair to me cos i didnt do anything..i've alwaes been patient with you..haisx..jus answer my qn.."

he replied...
"duno..wad do u tink??"

i replied..
"wen i ask u a qn..JUS ANS!"

he replied..
"err..i tink..NO.."
**blood start rushing thru my veins..tried to remain CALM**
i replied..
"haisx..if dats wad u reli think..den i cannot do anything.."
he replied..
"its not dt i dun love u..its jus dat i feel dt im making u upset almost everyday..nd im making ur life difficult.."
i replied..
"did i say ur making my life difficult?"
he kept QUIET..
nd den i start blabbering out dat he's bein unfair nd are thinking bout himself..he is not thinking bout me..if he's making all the trouble..im the one hu shud leave him ryt?? not he leave me but i chose not to leave him cos im being patient nd its bcos i still love him..nd i kept asking him..WHY U MUST DO DIS TO ME?? tell me wad did i do wrong..he kept QUIET all the way..nd put down the phone just like tat..den i kept calling him..a FEW times but he didnt pick up..but he finally pick up..
i asked;
"why now den u pick up?"
he replied;
"u gave me 34 MISSED CALLS.."
i replied;
"you reli wanna leave me?"
he replied;
"i realised dt i accidentally blabbered it out but ur the one who taught me dt we canot take back what we've already said.."
i replied;
"u shud hav told me at the first place.."
he replied;
"later u say i talk "keling"..hu want to ans??"
i replied;
"pls dun leave me unless i did something wrong..its just not fair..can or not??"
he replied;
"can syg.."

HAHA..den we start talking as usual..talking crap..at the end of the phonecall..he gave me 20 KISSES cos he feels dt he reli owe me alot of apologies..GOSH! I LOVE HIM..haisx but we still agreed not to be in contact with each other till dis sundae..i feel dat he reli need time to CHILL OUT..

todae..gona be goin to my GF's house..syida lerr..goin to her house nd chill out cos im DAMN BORED at home..i noe she wil make me laugh nd relieve my stress cos she's such a JOKER..heheheh..

TOODLES;

im gettin nervous..nervous nd MORE NERVOUS!!
he off his phone??
WHY??
does he feel irritated??
WHY??
is it true??
im bored??
HOW??
im confused??
depressed..
stressed..
worried..
ALL at the same time!!
ARGGHHHHAHHHH!!!!!

CANT LIVE WITOUT..
[1] money
[2] clothes..duhh
[3] EYELINER
[4] perfume..i love ESCADA
[5] my GFS nd BFS
[6] my family
[7] green tea =)
[8] CHOCOLATES !!!
[9] squid takoyaki;YUMYUM
[10] compact powder

I WANNA HAVE..
[1] new HP
[2] my own laptop
[3] a CUTE BF
[4] VESPA!!!
[5] a bank accnt with 1 million dollars
[6] have a CUTE FLUFFY CAT
[7] no stress in my life
[8] a HOUSE living with my GFS..WEE!!
[9] a SMART brain
[10] everythin PERFECT =)

im sadd..very SADD!!! yesterdae me nd helmi(my BF) had A BIG quarrel..lyk reli BIG..i mean RELI RELI BIG!! haisx..bcos of wat?? bcos i dun wnt him to involve in RIOTING..yesterdae him nd his frens gonna beat up dis guy which he says da BUAT TAIK with his bdak2..im like??..WAD DA HELL?? wad do u do dat for??? is it necessary?? u wanna get hurt?? nd he just dont understand why i didnt let him do dat..i noe he is helping his frens but..wad about me?? does he noe dat i will be WORRIED SICK if somethin wud happen to him..im doing dis bcos i LOVE him nd i CARE for him but does it matter to him?? *NO* he jus wanna go on nd help his frens witout thinking bout me..nd the thing is i dont want him to get in trouble cos i dont wanna lose him..i dont wanna lose the guy i love AGAIN but he jus dont understand how i feel......wad if he went to BOYS HOME..or ICU?? or worse..he DIE or someting..i mean like if ur not happy with sumone,its not necessary u hav to beat him or somethin cos wad wil u get at last?? only SATISFACTION but the CONSEQUENCES?? is a more serious matter..but in the end i got nothing to say cos dat is jus the way he is..maybe he will change one day but i HOPE its not too late..yesterdae i quarelled with him till 6 PLUS AM..yup im serious..i cant even think anymore nd my mind was goin total BLANK!! i was becomin even CRAZY wen he put down the phone just like that wen i havent finished talkin..HEY!!! DAT WAS RUDE OKAYY??? I MEAN RELI RUDE; nd i got reli MADD..but wen i woke up..i realised dat ders no use being angry bout sumtin dats was oreadi built up in sumone..okaee2..wad da hell im talking?? the thing is dat i APOLOGISED even tho i did nothin wrong..i jus wanna spent more time with him cos I MISS him so much!!!

niwaess..TODAY..at HOME...AGAIN..
BORED
BORED
BORED
sumone pls ask me out??
im DEPRESSED!!!

todae reli sucks..i spent my whole dae in my house doing absolutely nothing except for editing my friendster and listening to the most boring songs ever..one of it which i decided to put on dis blog..dis songs keep me feeling calm but if u listen it continuosly..it wud be boring lahh..DUHH.. jus now i waited for my SYG to wake up cos he usually wake up arnd 4 plus..didnt manage to get thru cos he didnt pick up the phone.WELL; i tink at dt tym he's stil sleeping or somethin..DUN WANNA TINK THE NEGATIVE..so i kept calm till bout 5 tried calling him again and he PICK UP the phone at last!! hearing his voice makes me happy ya noe. but he sounded BORED;SAD; nd ANGRY; at the same time which makes me worried..why syg?? hee.. i asked him whether he's feelin better cos yesterdae he had an argue wit his elder bro.. i understand..cos sometimes..arguements can be very CRUEL..huh?? whatever..ermm whatever?? why a stupid company wud make it a name of a drink??..*WEIRD*..syg say he wants me to call him after work cos at tat tym he's on the way to work..so todae i wil call him cos i miss his KISS..mwahh! hee..i duno why bt wen im bored i alwys tink of wad my recent ex is doing at tat tym?? hmm..kinda STRANGE FEELING..i noe if he has a GF (which i tink he wud hav by now) i wud be jealous but at the same time HAPPY..yes..HAPPY..cos we both had moved on with life..but i still wud like to meet him one dae cos i miss him..im jus so CONFUSED!!!..but whatever..can't wait to go out wit my SYG again..which is i tink on the 15th..wad about my EX?? ERMM..whatever!! OHH YAHH!! BTW; i made my specs last last week but just took it from the shop 2 days ago..its okeylahh..WHITE in colour cos I LIKE WHITE;its PURE; nd is suitable with any colour..i saw a specs which is THICK black in colour but..its kinda EMO with its red stripes..but kinda style ya noe..but still;its NOT my choice cos people wud tink dt im emo which is SO NOT..

**THE NERDY NERD**

hey guys!! im BORED..very BORED.. woke up in the mornin with an awful headache.. *OUCH* haiyoyo..whenever ders skul. i hope ders no school but wen it cums tyms like dis i jus feel dt school kills the **bored** sumtyms ya noe.. i miss my BOIFY so much..dunno why. didnt meet him for 3 daes feel like 3 weeks!! argghh!! i jus hate comin to skool if u wanna noe..its not about the teachers..its the students..i hate most of the guys in my class..dey are jus so fcukin ANNOYING nd dey just cant leave me in peace..dey keep emphasize on the word MINAH whenever im der..duno why..maybe i look like one but heyy!! if i dun disturb u..dont cum nd disturb me like u got nothin better to do nd dont judge people before u judge urself..look in the mirror...u may be worst den i am but its just dt u didnt realise..hmmphh!! todae gonna jus stay at home and ROT I MEAN REALLI ROT.. anyone if wanna go out but don hav anyone to go out with..go out with me!! puhleassee!!